Tuesday, April 26, 2016

Just Cry Holy


From bathroom policies changing to the hostile feeling of the 2016 elections, it is apparent that the society around us is rapidly adapting to include more immorality than ever before. This blog post is not meant to discuss politics or the frightening decline we are seeing in our country. This blog post is meant to discuss the culture that becomes more appealing to me with every passing day: the culture of Heaven.

A lot of my focus has been on the Celestial City lately, more focus than I remember having at any other time. I feel a draw deep in my spirit, and can only describe it as C.S. Lewis did when he said, "If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world."

For being as young as I am, I have had many wonderful experiences in this world. I have walked the edge of the Cliffs of Moher in Ireland. I have seen the Grand Canyon in Arizona. I have walked the beaches of Virginia at sunrise. I have sailed on the Maid of the Mist to the edge of Niagra Falls and heard and felt the thunder of millions of gallons of water crashing into each other. I have loved deeply. I have lost much. I have known what it is to heal slowly. I have rebuilt my life after moving multiple times. I have written books. I have clumbed mountains, both figuratively and literally. Yet, deep inside of my is a desire that no experience in this world can satisfy.

I have felt the "earnest" of this experience many times in my life (Eph. 1:13-14). I have experienced the Holy Spirit moving in me and through me, and it has given me a deeper hunger for the actual inheritance to come. What is this experience I am desiring? It is Heaven.

It is to view the gates of pearls, see the walls of gems surrounding the Great City, and know that I can walk through those gates. It is to be dressed in white with the saints of God at the general assembly. It is to find the mansion my God built for me and to dwell there for all eternity. It is to dance across streets of gold and listen to the stories of God's strength and glory from the other Citizens. It is to rewind time and view the battle of Jericho and to cheer with Israel as the walls come down. It is to eat at the Table of the King. It is to cast my crown at His feet. It is to finally know what it feels like to be physically held by my Father and Creator. It is to have no more tears, or death, or pain. It is to see God and to learn of Him in new ways. It is to bask in the glow of His light and to feel the warmth of His presence.

Just writing down these thoughts fills me with longing and joy. When I think of the Great I Am and all that He has in store for me, the troubles of this life seem to fade away and I look to Him with great expectation. I will live my life however I have to in order to make it to that Place. Today, I long for Heaven. I long to join the elders and the angels and just cry holy.

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Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Why I Pray

Why I Pray
or
When God Doesn't Answer
Before you read any further I want to say 2 things: 1) I am not an expert on anything, much less living for God. I have been seeking God as an adult for only 4 years and every God-moment I had before that was simply His mercy made evident in my life. 2) This article was written with tears in my eyes and pain in my heart. This article was written because I am having a hard time remembering this, not because I have it all figured out.

So, with that said...

Prayer is hard. Beyond the "getting yourself to do it" moments that accompany the first few weeks of setting up an every day prayer life, prayer is hard. Sometimes you feel like you are talking to the air, which is very hard to get through. What's worse though is feeling like you touched Heaven and God heard you, and then watching the situation you prayed about get even worse.

"But, God? We talked about this..."

Prayer is waiting...a lot of waiting. My Mom reminded me of it this week. How many times did David say something about "Waiting on God"? I kind of always thought that David was trying to say, "Don't get ahead of Him by trying to fix it yourself! See what He will do!" I never realized that he was saying, "There's nothing you can do. You just have to wait for God to do something about it."

Prayer takes faith. It takes faith to keep going and stay faithful, even when you aren't seeing the answer. It takes active faith to keep believing and saying "I know you are going to take care of this, God!" when you've been praying the same prayer for months on months and nothing is changing. Sometimes, I feel like my faith is even smaller than a mustard seed (maybe the size of a microscopic germ), because some days I just get so hung up on why God hasn't answered instead of believing that He will answer.

Prayer shows our trust. Prayer reminds us that we have given God control over this and that it doesn't matter what our eyes see, we have already placed this in His hands. It takes complete trust to not take it back from Him after we have left it in His care.

And, sometimes, prayer is the most rewarding thing I can do. Sometimes I feel Him so strong... Sometimes I know He's standing right there with me and I drop to my knees in humble adoration. Sometimes I have encouraging Scriptures pressed into my mind and I know He is speaking to me. Sometimes, He says, "This is why I can't give you that. You need to fix this." Sometimes He convicts me. Sometimes He just loves me. I keep praying for those moments. I keep going because I need that peace that only His Presence brings. I keep seeking God because, just like the apostles told Jesus, "Where else can I go? You alone have the words of life!"

I keep praying because my germ-sized faith is just big enough to say, "Ok, God. I have no idea what you are doing, but I still trust you. It's Your breath in my lungs, so I will keep pouring out my praise." I keep praying because I don't know what else to do. I keep praying because there IS nothing else I can do. I keep praying because somewhere deep inside of me, I believe that God notices.

I have asked God, "Is there something inside of me that is keeping You from working?" He doesn't answer. I have asked Him, "Is there something you want me to do for you that I am not doing? Is that why you are not answering?" He doesn't answer. I have asked Him, "Are you not answering in order to keep me from something that would draw me off of Your path?" He doesn't answer.

Yet I keep going. I keep asking. I keep reaching. I keep finding Him. I keep seeking His face. I keep pushing my way past the doubt and fear, the anger and frustration, the helplessness and pain, until I finally find His sweet presence. It is there that I remember this, "I need you, God. Even if your presence is all I ever have, I will still come and find you. I can't live my life without you. I love you."

So, I keep praying.

Thursday, April 7, 2016

But this man...


“But this man, because he continueth ever, hath an unchangeable priesthood.”
Or
An Overview of the Book of Hebrews
There are few things that I like more than deep teaching. I remember sitting in my Texas Bible College classes eating up the words of each teacher. I felt as if they were pouring water into my dry soul. I had never really heard teaching quite like that before, and I was only a freshman!

Deep teaching is one thing you almost have to go out of your way to find. Most of the sermons at LifePoint are evangelistic, written to draw hearts to salvation. Though they are powerful and I always glean from them, they do not leave me in that state of quiet thought and meditation like deep teaching.

If you haven’t experienced that feeling, the book of Hebrews in the New Testament is a great place to get started.  Hebrews is thought to have been written by Paul, and I am inclined to agree. Many debate over this, though, because the writer never actually says who they are. However, Hebrews reads a lot like the other books that Paul wrote, especially the last chapter.  No matter who it was written by, though, Hebrews is a deep teaching book.

Hebrews is a book that must be read slowly and without any distractions. We less-than advanced millennials may have a harder time understanding the phrasing and even vocabulary used in the book. Even with its hearty wording, though, it is easy to recognize what a doctrinal jewel this book is.

Chapter One –
“God, who at sundry times and in divers manners spake in time past unto the fathers by the prophets, Hath in these last days spoken unto us by his Son, whom he hath appointed heir of all things, by whom also he made the worlds; Who being the brightness of his glory, and the express image of his person, and upholding all things by the word of his power, when he had by himself purged our sins, sat down on the right hand of the Majesty on high: Being made so much better than the angels, as he hath by inheritance obtained a more excellent name than they.”

From the very first words of this book, we get the feeling that Paul has something important to say and he is not wasting any time getting there. He jumps right into his first main point:

                I.              Jesus was not an angel

His argument for this point is simply, how can Jesus be an angel when God would never tell an angel “Sit on my right hand, until I make thine enemies a footstool.”

Chapter Two –
“How shall we escape, if we neglect so great salvation?”

Paul moves into chapter two and gets right to his second point:

                II.             Jesus’ words and life were extremely important

Paul argues that if the words spoken by an angel are held in such high regard, how much more should the words of Jesus be held in high regard. He begins to paint the picture of who Jesus really was and what his life really accomplished.

Chapter Three –
“For this man was counted worthy of more glory than Moses, inasmuch as he who hath builded the house hath more honour than the house.”

Paul’s third point is:

                III.           Don’t let your unbelief keep you from Jesus

Paul knew that readers were going to begin to get this picture of God reconciling the world to Himself through Jesus, and many would stop in incredulous unbelief. We still see this problem in many people today. They will ask us, “How can one man’s death take away the sins of the whole entire world?” or, "Why would God give Himself like that?" Paul responds to this by recounting the story of the Israelites being held back from the Promised Land because of their unbelief. He warns readers not to let their unbelief keep them from believing in the redemptive work of Jesus.

Chapter Four –
“There remaineth therefore a rest to the people of God.”

Paul is still admonishing the reader not to let unbelief stop them, but now he gives an added incentive to believe.

                IV.          There is more of God than what you have experienced

I would sum up this chapter by saying, “There is rest, full understanding, and a throne of grace that are still yet to be gained! Keep believing!”

Chapter Five –
“For every high priest taken from among men is ordained for men in things pertaining to God. And no man taketh this honour  (becoming a priest) unto himself, but he that is called of God, as was Aaron.

                V.            Jesus, a high priest of the order of Melchisedec

Now we start to feel the gears shift. He’s about to tell us who Jesus is. He’s gone through telling us that he wasn’t an angel. He warned us to keep unbelief out of our hearts. Now he’s about to drop the hammer.

Chapter Six –
“Therefore leaving the principles of the doctrine of Christ, let us go on unto perfection; not laying again the foundation of repentance from dead works and of faith towards God, of the doctrine of baptism, and of laying on of hands and of resurrection from the dead, and of eternal judgement.”

                VI.          Understanding what I am about to tell you is the next step

In my mind’s eye I can see Paul stop dictating, look his scribe in the eye and ask, “Do you think they are ready for this?” Then he shakes his head and says, “It’s time to move forward. It’s time to stop learning and relearning the same principles I’ve taught for the last 20 epistles. It’s time to keep doing those things, but put something new in your mouth to chew on.”

Chapter Seven –
“For the priesthood being changed, there is made of necessity a change also of the law.”

                VII.         Jesus was a different kind of high priest

Paul talks about Melchisedec and further explains why Jesus was a priest after the order of Melchisedec. I, Ariqua, am not going to try to explain the identity of Melchisedec. It is enough to know that God considered him a different order than the Levitical order that comes to mind when someone says “Priest.” Jesus was not just an average human high priest. He was of a different order. Personally, I think this is one of the reasons why Jesus wasn’t born a Levite. God wanted it to be very clear that this was something different altogether.

Chapter Eight –
“In that he saith “A new covenant”, he hath made the first old.”

                VIII.        The need for change

It is in this chapter that we see more completely why a new covenant was needed. Paul explains that the old covenant (blood sacrifice in the temple) was not faultless. The sacrifice the priest of Israel made only rolled the sins forward year to year. It was merely a shadow of heavenly things. God knew that meant a greater sacrifice would have to be made to obliterate all of that past sin and pay the price for all the world’s future sins. He wanted to abolish this old way of doing things and create a new way, and this time, his plan was deeply personal. His laws would not just be on stone; they would be written in the minds and hearts of his people.

Chapter Nine –
“For where a testament is, there must also of necessity be the death of the testator.”

                IX.           Not just a covenant, but a testament

This is one of my favorite chapters, not just in this book, but in the entire Bible. I love the portion that says, “For if the blood of bulls and of goats, and the ashes of an heifer sprinkling the unclean, sanctifieth to the purifying of the flesh: HOW MUCH MORE SHALL THE BLOOD OF CHRIST?” This is oneness. This is the gospel. This is the doctrine of the true church. Jesus, who was God in flesh, paid for the sins of the world so that he could be the testator of a New Testament. When you write your will, it has no effect until you die. When God wrote the new testament, a personal relationship with his greatest creation, it had no effect until he died. So, Jesus became the high priest and perfect sacrifice of this new testament, and when he died on the cross that day, the NEW TESTAMENT began. Because of Jesus’ sacrifice, we can have our sins remitted. We can have a personal relationship with God. God can write his laws in our heart. We can know him intimately now. Thank you, Jesus!

Chapter Ten –
“Having therefore, brethren, boldness to enter into the holiest by the blood of Jesus, Let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith. Let us hold fast the profession of our faith without wavering.”

                X.            If you are blood-bought, sin has no control over you.

This is the climax! Everything that has been said before has been leading up to this moment. If you understand who Jesus really was and what he really did that day on the cross, you will know that sin has no power over you. You have an advocate though Jesus’ blood. You don’t have to live in captivity to sin any longer. The price has been paid! The blood has purchased you. Jesus' blood is more than just a Band-Aid to cover your sin AFTER you have sinned! You are supposed to be washed that first time and then move forward AND NEVER SIN AGAIN! You cannot do that without recognizing the magnitude of Christ’s sacrifice! He didn’t just die! He created something brand new: a New Testament that gives more power than just praying a few words when we mess up. He purchased you, adopted you, and made you his heir in the new testament so that you can live above the things that controlled you before. You are the heirs of a promise greater than any sin or devil. You have power over those things because Jesus claims you.

Chapter Eleven –
“But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.”

XI.           The Faith Factor

Paul knew the above revelation would blow your mind. And whenever your mind is left as wide open as your jaw when you fully understand that revelation, there is always room for a seed of unbelief. So insert the Faith Hall of Fame, as some Christians call it. Each of the people here did not have the full revelation of what Paul just explained. Each of these people were born and lived before Jesus. However, they believed in God so strongly that their faith saved them, even before Jesus had a chance to pay the price. What Paul is saying is, even though the price is paid, we still have to have the Faith to believe that Jesus has covered us. We still have to have the faith it takes to say “no” to temptation because we believe that God has something more for us than to just live and then die. Faith says, “Sin, you will not be a part of my earthly life, even if you satisfy my flesh, because I believe that I am going to a Heavenly City, whose builder and maker is God. Sin will have no place in that city, and therefore sin has no place in my earthly life.”

Chapter Twelve –
“But ye are come unto Mount Sion, and unto the city of the living God, the heavenly Jerusalem, and to an innumerable company of angels, to the general assembly and church of the first born, which are written in Heaven, and to God the Judge of all, and to the spirits of just men made perfect, and to Jesus the mediator of the new covenant, and to the blood of sprinkling, that speaketh better things than that of Abel.”

                XII.         Remember where you are going

It is so easy to get sidetracked here on earth by the cares of this world. It is easy to pick up the weights of this life and let the sins of the world lay on our shoulder. Paul is shaking us out of that mode in this chapter. You can almost hear him crying out, “HEY! Put that down! Remember where you are going!” He forces us out of the stupor this earthly life shoves on us. He forces our eyes and mind upward to the pearly gates, to the point of it all. Yes, lift up the hands that hang down. Yes, strengthen the feeble knees. Yes, make straight paths for your feet. Yes, live for God on this earth. Yes, do the work of the ministry. Yes, help others find Jesus. Yes, provide for your family. Yes, make sure the laundry gets done every week. Yes, keep feeding your children. Yes, keep doing what you have to do to make it through this life. BUT IN ALL THAT, REMEMBER WHERE YOU ARE GOING!

Chapter Thirteen –
“Let us go forth therefore unto him without the camp, bearing his reproach. For here have we no continuing city, but we seek one to come. By him therefore let us offer the sacrifice of praise to God continually, that is, the fruit of our lips giving thanks to his name.”

                XIII.        Final thoughts

Remember to keep doing the things that God wants you to do. Keep Heaven first and let that be your incentive to not let sin back into your life.Jesus paid the price, yes, and he still desires good works from you. However, when you do those evey day life things that you know you have to do, keep Heaven on your mind. Remember to praise God continually and in all things.  Through those things, you will be made perfect in every good work to do his will, and Jesus will be pleased with your life. 

“Grace be with you all. Amen.”


Because this book has such an awesome message, I encourage you to read it for yourself! Don’t take my notes as the entirety of the book. I have only begun to scratch the surface of all that God reveals in this book. Pick it up and read it for yourself!